Extended About Me
Hello :) My name is Renee, and if we get to know each other maybe you’ll figure out my last name XD Or if you happen to see a Facebook screenshot in my pictures. I used to take my last name out of those, but then I stopped caring.
I’m partially from Peoria, Illinois; I spent the first couple of years of my life there, and lived there part-time whilst visiting my father for the next 10 or so years after that. But most of my life has taken place in Eagan, Minnesota.
I have a lot of highly biased opinions on where I’m from. But rightly so, I think.
I had an amazing opportunity to get out of this miserable suburb and attend an arts high school for my junior and senior years. I’m in the photography and film program there, and it’s completely changed my life. The experience has totally turned my outlook on life and made me realize that nothing in this city matters at all. In my opinion, this place is full of hateful cruel people who’ve done nothing but ostracize me and hold me back.
My parents are not together and haven’t been for nearly all of my life. Currently, I live with my mother and her husband, whom I don’t really get along with much, my dog, and my two little sisters whom I love with everything I have.
You might see me blog about some of my daily battles, so I’ll just tell you what that’s all about.
I have had major depressive disorder, generalized anxiety, and obsessive-compulsive disorder for all of my life that I can remember, and I battled an addiction to self-mutilation for 4 years, my last 2 of middle school and my first 2 of high school. In May 2011, I was told that I have polycystic ovarian syndrome and it had been undiagnosed for years. I had seen many doctors, but none who really listened to me. Recently, I’ve also come out with having trichotillomania and dermatillomania.
You don’t have to know or understand any of that, but I mostly put this on my blog, because I know from experience that there are boatloads of people on Tumblr who may be blogging about or going through the same things. So, this is so anyone who needs help or just someone to listen, knows that they can talk to me, anon or not. :)
Clearly, I am also overweight. :P I’ve gained a lot of weight (that’d be an understatement) during my years of being untreated and undiagnosed for PCOS, and because no doctor was properly treating me, it was nearly impossible for me to lose any weight at all. But now that I’m being treated, I’m trying to turn that around. :) So far about 30 pounds down, but there is a long way to go that’s for sure. :P I’ve never known what it’s like to be “skinny” but I want to live a healthier life, and I think it’d be interesting to see what my body looks like under all this fluff. XD
I don’t know what I want to do with my life, but I know I’ll figure it out. I know I like science, and I think it’s fascinating. So I’m moving to Edinburgh, Scotland this coming autumn to study biological sciences :)
This blog contains anything and everything I want. Mostly to document my thoughts, and things that inspire my thinking, whilst finishing high school, my newfound happiness and my journey of improving my self-confidence, preparing to move to Scotland, and coming to a close with this chapter of my life. :)
I never thought I would amount to anything much. Growing up, that’s what everyone told me. But I finally know that I will. I will do great things. And the world is bigger than this city. I will never be on the same level as the cookie-cutter people of this town. I always knew that I would never have an average life, now I’m just trying to find out what it is I’m here for. :) My life is going to be one big adventure, and I’m excited to see how it all plays out (:
So, yeah :P I guess that’s pretty much it, but if you wanna know about anything else, feel free to hit up my ask box. I’m a bit shy, but if you’re sincere, I can be a pretty open person :)
If you wanna see some quirks and random things about me, click my confessions link c:
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